I know it’s not a long time since my last post. But, well, bad things happened and it really made me feel that time run really slow. It felt like I deal with this problem for almost more than 6 months and it really exhaust me.
No, I’m not going to tell you what kind of problem I had. I already promise to myself that I won’t hurt my body or my heart anymore even a second, even a blink of my eyes! I promise that I will move on, I stop looking back, and go on.
I know the problem wasn’t from out there. It was from here, deep inside me.... my own thoughts, my own wishes, my own.... stupidity... And the one that could heal all these scars would be only me, myself... Not others, and not even the one who hurts me.
I know, almost everyone in this problem feels hurt. And I can't claimed that the most suffer person in this problem is me. Everyone has their own perception, and I can't force them to do what I want. Everyone has their own way to release, to forget... to deal with problems. And, well... What I did, is the only way to get through this problem. Please, understand. Only for this time.
For almost 3 years, I nearly lost myself. And now, I think it’s enough. I need to live my own life, not others. I know there are a lot of things I could do, THINGS THAT WORTH TO SACRIFICE FOR. I know, I will survive. I know, time will heal, and I know that myself is strong enough to bear all of this problem!
Well, maybe that’s all. Sorry for this crap, but I just think that I want to post this. You know, I just want to let it out.
Ciao. Hope everything will be alright, for me, for you, for all of us :)